Isn't there a better word for sober?
Isn't there a better word for sober? For me, sober connotes being serious and no fun at all. I don't identify with that. I don't mind the term recovery. Recovery implies getting something back. Free? As in free from the bondage of addiction? Annie Grace uses AF (Alcohol Free,) but it's still not perfect. Hopefully, as I evolve, my concept of who I am becoming will too.
Yesterday was not a good not drinking day. Despite what I wrote in my blog, despite my desire to be healthy, I still chose to take a drink that led to being passed out drunk. I can't get better if I don't change what I am doing. I am not perfect, but I need to do better today.
But a drunk is not all I am. I also cooked yesterday. Healthy spaghetti sauce with meat and veg, not so healthy kielbasa with sauerkraut, kluski, onions, mushrooms and cream of mushroom soup.
Today I hope to make a sort of schedule so I don't waste this gift of a March break from work. All the rehabs say that structure is good for us (addicts.) I have never been good at structure/consistency. I get distracted really easily. I honestly think I have some form of ADD. Doc says no, because it comes on in childhood and I had no trouble concentrating in school. *shrugs* I like learning new things. I see kids with ADD get really focused when they are doing something they like to do (e.g. playing a video game.) When I am reading a book, I get immersed in the story and tend not to notice what is going on around me. In any case, I'll make a schedule and with any luck, I will follow it. :0)
Oh and I found my quote for today!
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." Maria Robinson
Yesterday was not a good not drinking day. Despite what I wrote in my blog, despite my desire to be healthy, I still chose to take a drink that led to being passed out drunk. I can't get better if I don't change what I am doing. I am not perfect, but I need to do better today.
But a drunk is not all I am. I also cooked yesterday. Healthy spaghetti sauce with meat and veg, not so healthy kielbasa with sauerkraut, kluski, onions, mushrooms and cream of mushroom soup.
Today I hope to make a sort of schedule so I don't waste this gift of a March break from work. All the rehabs say that structure is good for us (addicts.) I have never been good at structure/consistency. I get distracted really easily. I honestly think I have some form of ADD. Doc says no, because it comes on in childhood and I had no trouble concentrating in school. *shrugs* I like learning new things. I see kids with ADD get really focused when they are doing something they like to do (e.g. playing a video game.) When I am reading a book, I get immersed in the story and tend not to notice what is going on around me. In any case, I'll make a schedule and with any luck, I will follow it. :0)
Oh and I found my quote for today!
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." Maria Robinson
The dish you cooked sounds delish! Try the definition of "harm reduction" or "harm reduced drinking." I find it helps me better understand the flexibility of labels!
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